"Happy" Birthday

4 - Blah - 11:40
4 - Cold and Wet - 13:00
3 - Disappointed - 18:38
2 - Ill - 21:01

So, yes, I have had a hard few days. I feel slightly self-conscious declaring it like this. When I had to record my eating habits for the naturopath, the very fact that I knew I would have to admit it would steer me away from fast food and the like. But, unfortunately, I can't remain honest and say I feel any differently than I do. It seems to me that each year, my birthday is a disappointment.

This was a concern I had in the beginning of the study - what if it turns out I'm way more unhappy than I thought I was? How do I handle this information? I'll do my 14 days base before I have any kind of program of happiness increasing. I also think it's strange that I totally called this disappoitment and wonder if calling it caused it, at least a little.

I woke up Sunday morning feeling like, "Well, nothing else can happen." My expectations for the day were pretty mediocre - or so I thought. Dinner with my parents and my uncle - he'll probably bring me new books. My uncle forgot. My uncle forgot that he was invited for my birthday. I cried. I cry most years on my birthday. It seems like a good reason just to not have a birthday, if you know it's going to make you cry.

And then...as night fell...I developed symptoms of a urinary tract infection.